Motivator

Just was thinking about you and all the exercise and eating better that we have been doing together. Ever since you got back from Ukraine we have both been trying our best. I can't imagine if you were against healthy eating or even if you just were apathetic toward my needs to be healthier. I know you want the same thing, but not all husbands do and not just that, many just do their own thing and don't help their wives like you do. And besides all the health stuff, you are just the most supportive partner I could ever ask for. A true best friend because I think that is what a good best friend would do....help and go through the battles/struggles together!! It means the world to me and you getting up in the mornings and sticking with the running is very motivating for me. It makes me choose to go ahead and get up when all I want to do is ignore and just stay in bed! Thank you for helping me!

Now besides all that....you are looking good! :)  Truly, I notice it the most in your super strong legs but I see it in your arms too right now. I don't know how you feel about it, but it is showing! I know you were feeling self conscious before you went to Ukraine and were complaining about your belly! So, I just want you to know that all this work is doing stuff!!! I get discouraged easily with weight loss and exercise and trying to look better but I know as we keep going I will look better and better....and it truly is....FOR YOU! I love getting to be attractive to you!

because you're my favorite!!

Miss Me?

Well, its been forever since I wrote you on here! Sorry about that. I'm sure you have sensed my stress levels being high for awhile now. It seems there has been tons to work on or stress over since Sam arrived. Especially our most recent stress with trying to figure out how on earth to basically save nearly $3000 in 7 weeks! That is certainly a first for us! I almost was sick to my stomach. But you were so good at comforting and reassureing me that it will be ok and we can do it! I can't really express how much it means to me when you are willing and active in helping solve problems with me. At times for some reason I tell myself that I'm alone in needing to figure some things out which makes me feel lonely! I don't feel that right now. In fact I feel closer to you today than I have in a few months and I think its because we are being a team. I'm still a bit unsure about how these 7 weeks will go but knowing we are doing this together makes it feel so much better! I love you and I love that there are no battles I have to face alone! You are wonderful! Thank you for you willing heart and being willing to do whatever it takes to help. Right now...you are my Sam and I have needed that!

Bad Day Go AWAY

Well, I know it has been a rough day. I know I have been feeling it too and with all the things going on this week and next I feel pretty run down. I have been working on the Sweetheart banquet and tonight I have been trying to get some done on the Children't Ministry Handbook. Then I was about to close down and saw my "Letters from your Honeyrose" tab at the top and thought...man with everything going on I have been such a terrible wife!!! I'm so sorry that sometimes when you probably need me the most I get too busy with everything and forget to just hold on to you! I know it is tough but I also know that when we go through it together it feels  a whole lot easier. So, yes has been a bad day...yes. And is there a thousand things to do...yes. But I would much rather have to deal with it all as long as I still have you! And there's that song I think of...I don't remember the name...it's something like running late to work and missed the bus, gonna have **** to pay but then I see your picture on the wall and it reminds me that its all okay.... anyway, I am thinking about that song and it is very true! No matter what I can not forget how richly I am blessed by having you in my life. If you loose your job and things get a whole lot harder, I don't want to forget that I still have you and that make this a not so very bad day after all! I love you tons!

Pee Ka BOO! I Love you!!

BOO!!!!
Guess you were starting to believe I would never write again huh??
I just thought I would send you a hello and I love you! I just took these pictures using the web cam. Goodness, it has been forever since I have used a web cam! lol! I remember so well the days of MSN messanger being the only way I could "talk" to you. That seems like forever ago and although I loved it I treasure knowing that at some point today I will see and hear your voice again. And I will go to sleep with it being the last voice I hear and usually the first I hear when I wake up! I love that! You are so wonderful to me and make my life happy! Thank you for our wonderful anniversary. I just love spending time with you and fun things like deer coming up to the van and rejoicing over a gaint jacuzzi. Laying and watching TV or a movie and snacking on whatever. You just make it all so fun! Thank you for all that give! I think you are the best...you are definitly my favorite person in the whole world! Can't wait to see you again today! Thanks again for the journal too. I am excited to finish reading what you wrote and to begin adding my own. You are sweet and thoughtful! Hope you have a good rest of the day my love!

Hugs and lots of kisses,
Honeyrose

When we're apart you have my heart

I know we have only been married almost 7 years and I spent a lot of my life without you, but I can never get use to the moments we aren't together! Even for a day....or two....It just feels wrong to be away from you! I think it's because you have my heart and I just don't function well too far away from my heart!
     I'm glad you will get to do something fun while we are gone and I know I will be busy with the shower and everything else, but I will never stop wishing you were with me....to tell a joke, laugh, see you smile, remember things together, share when I'm sad or frustrated, lay next to when I'm sleeping, kiss you whenever I feel like it (I need to do that more often!!), and just whatever! You help me feel confident, you comfort me, you always make me smile and laugh, you make every moment have more meaning, I guess what I am trying to say is being apart breaks my heart! :(   But at the same time I am so lucky that even after 7 years....I'm not even close to being tired of you in fact I just feel more attached and more in love with you! I hope your weekend goes well and that even softball is lots of fun. Try to rest some.....I mean take a nap for real!!! You have no wife or children around so you really should make sure you get some rest! When will you get this chance again for awhile! So, don't do the crazy normal thing and stay up WAY too late eating rotel and waste this opportunity to rest yourself!! I love you and can't wait to see you again....even though I haven't even left yet! :) Please be safe because I want to feel your arms around me again and to kiss those wonderful lips again and again....and again!

                                            I love you.........always!  XoxoXoOOXXoo

Never Enough

Mine! Mine! Mine! Sometimes that's how I feel when it comes to you. Of course, I do feel strongly supportive of ALL that you do and I can't even describe how constantly proud I am of how you serve and love others so well! But then I have moments like now that I struggle with feeling like I just want to drag you off and keep you all to myself! I guess the lesson of sharing never ends. :)
      I am gonna spend some time praying though that God help me overcome this in some ways because I know I have replaced some of my love and connection to Him with my love and desire for you. I know that isn't healthy and that it would be better for us even if I make sure that I am content alone....with Him! But that is so hard because I think you are just so fantastic! :) You make everything better. Even sitting! lol! I just like sitting when you are here sitting with me! Not to mention all the other things in life that are truly exciting like going to the movie or the zoo or playing in a pool.... you name it and if you are there well, it all becomes more enjoyable! I hope you understand and I also hope maybe that you feel the same about me! Life is just better with you. Period. *sigh* Which is why lately I have felt a little sad and jealous (not too much and not at anyone in particular)...just wishing at least that I could be with you while you work and are busy. Cause like I said even if I am just sitting doing nothing your proximity to me causes it to be relaxing. So, I guess I wanted to write and tell you this cause in a way just knowing you will read it at some point while we aren't together makes me feel a little tiny bit closer to you. Kindof the way we use to have to write all the time to feel close when we were thousands of miles apart. Gosh....that sounds sickening now. I can't even imagine being that far away from you anymore. 3 miles down the road is far to me! Lol!
      So, bottom line.....I kind of like you, adore you, and wish you were right here....with ME! I am so glad I have a right to call you MINE too! Cause no matter what comes up and all those that need you sometimes, in the end I know that you will come home to me eventually! *sigh* What a nice thing to know! :) I love you tons.....so come home soon! :)

The cleverness of you

Cute picture huh? And he even has glasses like you. Just needs facial hair and a bow tie!:) Anyway, I was just thinking about all the great things about you. I am always amazed at how talented you are. You are an excellent speaker even though you have no training. You are certainly my favorite story teller which also makes you a fantastic book reader ( I know children esp ours just love it when you read). You build things, you sew, you figure out how to fix things, your a very handy man like your dad! Like I told you before you are charming beyond belief to everyone....don't even try to deny it. Sure some ppl might not adore you but come on....those who don't are so few they just don't count! Okay where was I? Oh yeah, you are smart and funny! You know the Word and not because you went to seminary or any special school but because you live in it and allow it to be essential in your life!
You are a fantastic, fun, extremely loving, dad who isn't afraid to be alone with your own children....even a baby! May not seem like much but I so recognize the blessing and unique quality that is because so many men can't and won't or at the very least feel very insecure about taking care of children...even their own. And you are good with not only our children but I would say with any child even those with disabilities or just annoying qualities that no one else handles well! :)
You are also so strong! And although you don't feel like it or believe it I am just super amazed when you just up and do things...like go for a run with RaShawn when you haven't been running regularly. I truly believe that you could do any kind of physical labor or sport....yes it might take you some practice but you could because I have seen you do things that you haven't had any practice doing... you just DO! So if you actually wanted to do something and practiced.....you could and would excel!
On a softer sweeter note I am always amazed at how caring you are able to be with all peoples. Age, gender, race, disabilities, sinfulness, annoyingness, craziness(you run into that type every now and then), whoever they are and however they act you always show so much strength in patience and kindness! Even when you are caught off guard or thrown into the moment you always try and be calm and loving and friendly! Oh how I wish I could be more like that at times. Sometimes I don't struggle much with being mean or anything like that but I get so nervous or unsure I just freeze or hide or try and run away. You always stand strong and just do the best you can.
I guess this post isn't so much about the cleverness of you but the Christness of you! And that is the most attractive, wonderful part of who you are! Thank you for all you teach me! You humble me and always help me keep my eyes on Christ because I see Him overflowing in you! I love you darling!