Pee Ka BOO! I Love you!!

BOO!!!!
Guess you were starting to believe I would never write again huh??
I just thought I would send you a hello and I love you! I just took these pictures using the web cam. Goodness, it has been forever since I have used a web cam! lol! I remember so well the days of MSN messanger being the only way I could "talk" to you. That seems like forever ago and although I loved it I treasure knowing that at some point today I will see and hear your voice again. And I will go to sleep with it being the last voice I hear and usually the first I hear when I wake up! I love that! You are so wonderful to me and make my life happy! Thank you for our wonderful anniversary. I just love spending time with you and fun things like deer coming up to the van and rejoicing over a gaint jacuzzi. Laying and watching TV or a movie and snacking on whatever. You just make it all so fun! Thank you for all that give! I think you are the best...you are definitly my favorite person in the whole world! Can't wait to see you again today! Thanks again for the journal too. I am excited to finish reading what you wrote and to begin adding my own. You are sweet and thoughtful! Hope you have a good rest of the day my love!

Hugs and lots of kisses,
Honeyrose

When we're apart you have my heart

I know we have only been married almost 7 years and I spent a lot of my life without you, but I can never get use to the moments we aren't together! Even for a day....or two....It just feels wrong to be away from you! I think it's because you have my heart and I just don't function well too far away from my heart!
     I'm glad you will get to do something fun while we are gone and I know I will be busy with the shower and everything else, but I will never stop wishing you were with me....to tell a joke, laugh, see you smile, remember things together, share when I'm sad or frustrated, lay next to when I'm sleeping, kiss you whenever I feel like it (I need to do that more often!!), and just whatever! You help me feel confident, you comfort me, you always make me smile and laugh, you make every moment have more meaning, I guess what I am trying to say is being apart breaks my heart! :(   But at the same time I am so lucky that even after 7 years....I'm not even close to being tired of you in fact I just feel more attached and more in love with you! I hope your weekend goes well and that even softball is lots of fun. Try to rest some.....I mean take a nap for real!!! You have no wife or children around so you really should make sure you get some rest! When will you get this chance again for awhile! So, don't do the crazy normal thing and stay up WAY too late eating rotel and waste this opportunity to rest yourself!! I love you and can't wait to see you again....even though I haven't even left yet! :) Please be safe because I want to feel your arms around me again and to kiss those wonderful lips again and again....and again!

                                            I love you.........always!  XoxoXoOOXXoo

Never Enough

Mine! Mine! Mine! Sometimes that's how I feel when it comes to you. Of course, I do feel strongly supportive of ALL that you do and I can't even describe how constantly proud I am of how you serve and love others so well! But then I have moments like now that I struggle with feeling like I just want to drag you off and keep you all to myself! I guess the lesson of sharing never ends. :)
      I am gonna spend some time praying though that God help me overcome this in some ways because I know I have replaced some of my love and connection to Him with my love and desire for you. I know that isn't healthy and that it would be better for us even if I make sure that I am content alone....with Him! But that is so hard because I think you are just so fantastic! :) You make everything better. Even sitting! lol! I just like sitting when you are here sitting with me! Not to mention all the other things in life that are truly exciting like going to the movie or the zoo or playing in a pool.... you name it and if you are there well, it all becomes more enjoyable! I hope you understand and I also hope maybe that you feel the same about me! Life is just better with you. Period. *sigh* Which is why lately I have felt a little sad and jealous (not too much and not at anyone in particular)...just wishing at least that I could be with you while you work and are busy. Cause like I said even if I am just sitting doing nothing your proximity to me causes it to be relaxing. So, I guess I wanted to write and tell you this cause in a way just knowing you will read it at some point while we aren't together makes me feel a little tiny bit closer to you. Kindof the way we use to have to write all the time to feel close when we were thousands of miles apart. Gosh....that sounds sickening now. I can't even imagine being that far away from you anymore. 3 miles down the road is far to me! Lol!
      So, bottom line.....I kind of like you, adore you, and wish you were right here....with ME! I am so glad I have a right to call you MINE too! Cause no matter what comes up and all those that need you sometimes, in the end I know that you will come home to me eventually! *sigh* What a nice thing to know! :) I love you tons.....so come home soon! :)

The cleverness of you

Cute picture huh? And he even has glasses like you. Just needs facial hair and a bow tie!:) Anyway, I was just thinking about all the great things about you. I am always amazed at how talented you are. You are an excellent speaker even though you have no training. You are certainly my favorite story teller which also makes you a fantastic book reader ( I know children esp ours just love it when you read). You build things, you sew, you figure out how to fix things, your a very handy man like your dad! Like I told you before you are charming beyond belief to everyone....don't even try to deny it. Sure some ppl might not adore you but come on....those who don't are so few they just don't count! Okay where was I? Oh yeah, you are smart and funny! You know the Word and not because you went to seminary or any special school but because you live in it and allow it to be essential in your life!
You are a fantastic, fun, extremely loving, dad who isn't afraid to be alone with your own children....even a baby! May not seem like much but I so recognize the blessing and unique quality that is because so many men can't and won't or at the very least feel very insecure about taking care of children...even their own. And you are good with not only our children but I would say with any child even those with disabilities or just annoying qualities that no one else handles well! :)
You are also so strong! And although you don't feel like it or believe it I am just super amazed when you just up and do things...like go for a run with RaShawn when you haven't been running regularly. I truly believe that you could do any kind of physical labor or sport....yes it might take you some practice but you could because I have seen you do things that you haven't had any practice doing... you just DO! So if you actually wanted to do something and practiced.....you could and would excel!
On a softer sweeter note I am always amazed at how caring you are able to be with all peoples. Age, gender, race, disabilities, sinfulness, annoyingness, craziness(you run into that type every now and then), whoever they are and however they act you always show so much strength in patience and kindness! Even when you are caught off guard or thrown into the moment you always try and be calm and loving and friendly! Oh how I wish I could be more like that at times. Sometimes I don't struggle much with being mean or anything like that but I get so nervous or unsure I just freeze or hide or try and run away. You always stand strong and just do the best you can.
I guess this post isn't so much about the cleverness of you but the Christness of you! And that is the most attractive, wonderful part of who you are! Thank you for all you teach me! You humble me and always help me keep my eyes on Christ because I see Him overflowing in you! I love you darling!

A expression of my love

Today I see you. Today I noticed that you need to know that I see you. How often do I remember to speak what is in my heart about you. So here I go... This blog is now my place not to hide but to share and express what you deserve to hear every day. I'm sure there might be days when its not all praise and flowery words but as much as possible I hope to use this as a way to surprise and make your day better when you get to read all the ways I cherish and adore you! You are my best friend and favorite part of every day! You make me proud by how you live and also because I get to call you mine when I know others only wish to have the kind of man you are! I still feel so lucky to be the woman you adore! And although you may not believe me...you're the handsomest man I know!! wink wink! So again, today I begin to do what I have failed to do and want to do always....tell you that I love you!